Escape I can’t take it much longer I say as tears fall down my eyes Everyone sees my tears but don’t hear my silent cries Where can I escape to A place where I can have peace of mind Somewhere I know I won’t be found A place where I don’t suffer from harsh words and fierce blows A place no one would suspect A place no one knows Peaceful silent without a sound Someone please help me escape the torment Feelings of abuse kept inside Thoughts of running away no longer can I hide And the one person whom I can trust Has an escape for all of us For us the ones who try to escape life, love, abuse, hate And has a plan for those who look and do not see The pain deep down inside of me I can’t take it much longer I say As tears roll down my eyes They see the tears but do not hear the cries If I could have one wish I would wish to escape And live life like I’m supposed to live it Happy, joyful, comfortable bliss Now you know how me and others feel And how everyday we love this terrifying nightmare Please believe us. Be aware 8/3/03 Today is World Suicide Prevention Day. I wrote this poem when I was 13. I’m 27 now. For 14 years I battled with and overcame suicidal thoughts, depression and […]
I began working on this material sometime last year. Like Forrest Gump, one day I felt like writing……… It was released in 1994. Mr. Robert Kelly’s Bump and Grind. Now I didn’t know what bumping and grinding was but all I knew was that I wanted to do it in the worst way. I knew from an early age that sex gave you powers. And if this is what being on crack felt like then I knew exactly why people become addicted. There is so much magic in bodies being intertwined. Sweating. Panting. Gripping sheets. Changing positions. Tongue biting. The whole six. The whole nine. Hell the sixty nine! I’m a big fan. Any emotion that humans express can be seen during sex. I’ve found myself toting panties in my pocket plenty of mornings before class or work. Happy shame. But fast forward to the here and now. With me listening to Meshell Ndegocello and playing with a dildo. I’m 26. No kids. No husband. A queen size pillow top bed. And the sex drive of a porn star. Where did I go wrong? Let’s take it back to middle school. Yes middle school. I’ve always been an avid reader. There is nothing like getting into a good read and forgetting all time and space. Well for me the game changed when I graduated from Nancy Drew mysteries and Babysitters Club adventures. I got my hands on my aunts book […]
*To the instrumental of Pretty Girl Rock by Keri Hilson “My name is Rocky, I’m so foxy, fly oh my just a lil bit cocky”……ok clearly I shouldn’t quit my day job to become a singer, so I’ll stop now. But seriously, I can’t recall a time where I was afraid to be the center of attention. I’ve been in the church […]
This is the email that never gets sent. You know. The one that you start everyday but backspace to clear it out. Some of us function daily as boiling tea kettles in the workplace. There is so much that needs to be said to all of the right people but when it all boils down to it, we can’t afford to be fired because Duke Energy (or whomever your respective utility provider is) could care less- the bills still have to be paid. This email never really has a subject because regardless of what it says, or who it gets sent to, it will likely be opened, read and moved to a folder by blind eyes wanting to ignore the truth. So I figured, what the hell, why not blog about it? It would go a little something like this…… Can we please stop overusing the word teamwork? It’s a bit of a stretch. Teamwork is just about that, teamwork. Not cliques and favorites. We all should be working together to accomplish team goals and not focusing on demeaning and disrespecting the ideas of others depending on how close you are to the boss. It’s about being able to share ideas as a collective. How about we work on treating each other with kindness, fairness and most importantly respect? K? And another thing. Would you trust a random passenger to fly an airplane? No? Would you trust a toddler to […]
I was not….I repeat WAS NOT a podcast listener until this year. I’m more of a reader (post coming soon about that). But The Friend Zone podcast completely changed the game for me. This podcast focuses on mental health, mental wellness, and mental hygiene because……who in the hell wants a musty brain? If you aren’t listening, you are truly missing out. If you’ve had a conversation with me within the past few months, you’ve heard about this podcast. So many beautiful things have been happening since I started listening. I encourage you (as I did) to go back to listen to the beginning episodes in addition to the newest ones. You won’t be disappointed. I decided to email them to give credit where credit is due. Figured I’d share….. Subject: Y’all get on my nerves …..in a good way. I don’t even remember how I stumbled upon your podcast but however it happened, just know that I am beyond grateful and with every opportunity I get, I spread the word! You guys have snatched my entire life in every way imaginable. I still have my job because of you. My peace of mind. My health. If my brain had a scent, it would be that of eucalyptus mint. Not only do I listen but I binge listened to the beginning episodes as well just to get the foundation of your work and to hear how much you all have grown. I learned […]
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